My first post for 2010

At the face of death…

I’m in a situation again where i’am waiting the last breathe of my patient… The longest time to wait… just like in giving birth when the time is getting closer u feel its too long to wait… coz u never know when its coming butyou know its coming….

God is so great that He made the entrance and exit almost the same… Though it doesnt happen to everybody.. but its the general scenario for a normal situation..

At least lucky for my patients coz they were able to live their lives to the fullest…. they were able to experience life as a whole…. so in a way, its better for them to go to alleviate the pain they are experiencing..

I’m the mode of heart breaking again… especially when I was with my patient when they are still strong and spend good times and hard times as well…. then u witness how they suddenly deterioriate.

Once they admitted in the hospital, expect that when they come back it would be a lot different.

But I guess thats how it is… at least the family will still have the chance to be with them and give the care and love… reconcile also with people they were estranged for long time…

When this time comes, everything is forgotten and forgiven…. coz they were also concern of leaving this world with peace in their hearts….

They know that they are coming back again to their true home with their mom and dad who passed away.. Those are the people that they call… not their spouses nor their children… its always their mom and dad….

They see them and they start to lift their hands .Sometimes they just stay waiting for some family members….when all is done… then the time gets closer and closer……

And when the time comes…. its gonna be a new start again for the family….

As for me, another patient again to cheer up and help to make his/her last days comfortable……

I took the Chance!

 I took the chance… i took the risks.. and i’m moving forward …..

Its been more than a year since my last post. Wow! after reading again my posts I knew i did the right decision.  God answered my prayers. The last time, I was in search of my new destination and at that time, I had already some work offers from schools and a call centers which I would like to try. As much as  I want to explore those areas,  a part of me was telling that  its not yet the time for them. So to confirm my feelings, as usual I went to my visionary man and alas, he gave me the answer… I will go out of the country and  will have to work there.. as he said things will work out for me. Actually its the most practical way in terms of  achieving finacial security. Besides, I have my support group there and its not the first time i’m doing it. So I just finished all my committments  then  I flew to US. As soon as I arrived, I started to work right away. Lucky me.. while the americans are being laid off from their work  I still  have my work  and meeting my financial objective so far…. :-)

Take a Chance…

ALWAYS TAKE A CHANCE…

 

the end result may not always be  what u hoped for but that’s fine.

At least you will never go through life wondering….

“ What if…” or “ only if” ….

The worst regret we can have in life

 is not for the wrong things we did,

but for the right things we could have done

but we never did…   

If you dont go after what you want

you’ll never have it.

If you dont ask, the answer is always NO

If you dont step forward

You are always in the same place

Take risks in life

then life goes on….

 

 

Still waiting…

Patience is a virtue… And I’m still holding on to my motto…

“Great things come to those who wait”

I’m still waiting patiently for the good  career opportunity. I have several interviews already and I dont know if one of them is the right one for me. Hope it is..

In waiting for something  but the greatest enemy is time. Sometimes we don’t have the luxury of time to wait for long. But I always believe that God will give our desires on time. The thought of it strengthened me and motivated me to go on ..

Sometimes I can’t avoid to think if I did the right decisions. And when the events run to my mind  and I felt so happy and at peace every moments of it…I know I did the right decision

There is no right or wrong decisions…. only lessons learned..

My first

I never thought that I can compose a poem in a few minutes. When a lot of things run to your mind and you feel a little emotional the creativity part of our brain works. No wonder why the writer, composers and poets need inspiration or anyhitng that will trigger their creativity part. I was so proud to show it to my daughter for I did it for 20 minutes.

Well actually its my thoughts and feelings it was just written in a form of poem. Im proud of myself.. I’m on my way to be a writer.. hehehe

Let me share with you what I have composed…. This is the good thing when you have time and dont know what to do to pass the day… you discover yourself and unleash the talents you are not aware of….

 

 Sa Aking Paghihintay  

Sa gitna ng walang katiyakang  takbo ng buhay

Patuloy pa din akong naghihintay

Umaasa na isang araw aking masisilayan

Ang mithiing matagal ng hinihintay

 

Isang buhay na masaya at sama-sama

Isang buhay na ang bawat hinga ay nadarama

Isang buhay na walang takot at pangamba

Isang buhay na puno ng pag asa

 

Buong pananalig na ang lahat ng mithiin

Ay ipagkakaloob ng Maykapal sa takda nyang panahon

Di dapat malumbay at manangis

Pagkat  darating na ang buhay na hinihintay

 

Ihanda na ang sarili at

Buong galak na salubungin

Ang bagong hamon ng buhay

 

Magsaya at magdiwang

Pagkat muling mabubuhay

Ang buhay na minsan ay

nalumbay.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Pinay ako…

Reasons

I have fully accepted why things happen to me at a certain time of my life. I felt that I was pulled out from my work to attend to the needs of my loved ones which I neglected coz of my work. I brought my daughter to the doctor for her toe nail problem for the second time around . Then I had to attend to my son’s school requirements. I had the chance to attend  a retreat with Fr. Orbos, visit Alaminos  for book donation and assisted Dr. Borabien in developing her profile for the competition. She is a nominee for the Jose Rizal Award and she is representing Laguna. A big honor for the MOB foundation. Yesterday, I even met with my friends had coffee and chickahan blues.

It was indeed a very productive time for me. I felt that I was very useful to other people in my life who needed my time, attention and talents.  But of course i still have the reality to face…. FIND A WORK  and COMPANY I TRULY DESERVE…

Hope this coming week will be the realization of my search……Good luck to me….

In love…

 

In love,

There is no right or wrong

YOU just have to feel it

enjoy it and feel alive

Even for a while…

 

Lovers

I have been hooked with the korean telenovela the “Lovers”I like the leading actress KIM  famous in her lovers in paris novela as Vivian. I just finished watching the ending of the novela via youtube.Thanks to my homesick friend who watched it with me via YM …technology ingenuity

I admire how the koreans do their telenovelas. They have good stories. No wonder Filipinos are hooked on their telenovelas. And it even  gave a livelihood to plenty of filipinos who are in pirated business.

I’m a hopelessly romantic woman thats why I was so engrossed with their story .Though, I watched it in an installment way (via youtube) I was able to see the good scenes and it was really done in  a very romantic and creative ways. It was a happy ending. Actually, it was not an extraordinary ending. I have seen stories ending that way. But its how the scene was made. The dialogue, the emotions build up and  the cinematography  added to the excitement of the ending.

How I wish our life could be like the telenovela. We can do our  own script so we can edit, revised  and direct it. Though, we have our life in our hands and they say that  we have choices how we should run it. Still, we have our destiny and purpose in life to fulfill. Maybe thats the reason why we have movies to watch and stories to read so that we can feel kind of  life we really wanted even for a while. A truly make believe world!

So nice to be young and be in love……

 

 

New Challenge

Its a challenging time again for me. I just quit my job from MetroPharma  as DM. A matter of principles and self respect. But I will always be grateful and thankful for the opportunity the company had given me. I will surely miss the people that I worked with. What is important is how I made them feel especially to my team. It was indeed a worthwhile experience since I LEARNED and SHARED also what I know . I always believe that there is no wrong decisions or mistakes only lessons learned. But if repeated several times then it becomes a big bloopers in life.

I know that God is leading me to the new direction where my life should be heading. I have been wanting to teach. But as expected I cant rely on it in terms of  full finacial security .This time is indeed a trying time for me financially but I’m not as worried as when I was younger and striving. I have a deeper sense of emotional security , stronger faith in GOD and in circumstances now. So I was suprised yesterday when I got a call from Letran College my alma mater , asking me to report in the school and do a teaching demo on Tuesday at 2pm. Apparently, my prof who asked for my resume  to make me a resource speaker forwarded it to the school . He wants me to help in reviving the Marketing Institute we had before.  Thrilled with the idea,  I started making my materials for my teaching demo.

As they say things happen for a reason. I woke up early and started to send  my resume to different companies. I plan to teach for part time to get my experience for the meantime. But I dont know also what will happen.  I have been in the corporate life for more than 20 years.. Maybe this is the time for me to fulfill the true desire of my heart….Just have to wait and see…